12 weeks

The weeks are all ready flying by. Health updates. Still very sick. My day is a little like this:
7am wake up, throw up.
7-8am try to function to help kids get off to daycare and school
8-9 or 10 sleep again or try to eat breakfast
10-3 doing pretty good, up and down but functioning
3pm pick kids up from daycare/school and try to make it home without sleeping
4pm sleep, 5pm sleep, 6pm sleep, 7pm sleep  oh and try to get dinner in there somewhere.
7-8pm get kids to bed
8pm try to work
10:00 sickies hit again
11:00 back to bed for the night.

So, a lot of sleeping for the most part. It has been rough to say the least, much tougher than the other two. Ryan has been amazing and really stepping in to help. The kids have also been great. Patrick will be playing and will stop by the couch and give me little kisses on my head, such a sweetheart. Annika will try to crawl in for cuddles and loves to pet my belly and ask how big baby is. Today she wasn't even awake and said "mommy baby is as big as a plum today!" They are both super excited. I'm excited to start feeling better.

9 weeks

Made it official to all today after receiving great confirmation at our ultrasound this am that all is good.

7 weeks

Oh little baby. You are making mama sick sick sick. Mornings can be rough, but not near as bad as nights. Ugg, laying on the couch is my norm now. Not moving for fear I may loose it all. And the exhaustion, oh boy the exhaustion. I'm getting anxious to tell people all about you. Soon soon I'll see that tiny heart beating. I told Patrick this morning that I was sorry I was so sick. He replied "Don't be sorry mommy, it's ok. I love you." What a dear!

The littlest (not kidding this time) bliss

So, here we go again. Should be old hat but feels so new at the same time. Memories long buried come streaming back. October 13, 2014. I didn't think it would happen, I really didn't. I thought I was too old, my time had past, I needed to move on. 

I told Ryan after I got to work. I was shaking and scared to tell him. Not because we didn't want this but because life as we knew it was gone, we would be forever changed.